Why Am I Holding Back?
Yes, I am holding back. Sometimes I believe that people won’t understand me. Why should they? I’m one of a kind. There will never be another me. EVER. So, I have to embrace ideas and push them into the world.
I know your asking, “What is he talking about?” This topic revolves around being an extraordinary writer. I get stuck overthinking ideas. Will this work? I can’t say this. This might offend people. What I’m saying is too much for the public to consume.
I was speaking with a good friend of mine over the weekend. He gave his opinion on my writing style. He deemed it too technical. I applauded his honesty. I reflected on my style and word usage.
It wasn’t a put down. He said that “I have tremendous talent” and I shouldn’t worry if my writing doesn’t make sense. This is in regards to poetry and other writings. He’s right. I have to let go.
My job is to challenge people’s thinking and to challenge myself creatively. I’m growing and maturing as a writer. During the weekend, I was in a writing zone. I followed my heart and wrote a few poems.
I tried changing structure and adding a couple of pauses to my poems. I want to be formless. I can do it. I just have to keep writing. His words challenged me this weekend. I felt inspired to take more chances with my writing.
After I finished a poem, I tried calling him, but there was no answer. I wanted to show that I can be less technical. That was my ego. I’m glad he didn’t pick up (lol). I still love him. He’s my guy. I have nothing to prove to anyone.
I can never please anyone, but myself. Each day I have to answer this question: Do I want to move torwards greatness or stay put because of fear?