Why Am I Holding Back?

Yes, I am holding back. Sometimes I believe that people won’t understand me. Why should they? I’m one of a kind. There will never be another me. EVER. So, I have to embrace ideas and push them into the world.

I know your asking, “What is he talking about?” This topic revolves around being an extraordinary writer. I get stuck overthinking ideas. Will this work? I can’t say this. This might offend people. What I’m saying is too much for the public to consume.

I was speaking with a good friend of mine over the weekend.  He gave his opinion on my writing style. He deemed it too technical. I applauded his honesty. I reflected on my style and word usage.

It wasn’t a put down. He said that “I have tremendous talent” and I shouldn’t worry if my writing doesn’t make sense. This is in regards to poetry and other writings.  He’s right. I have to let go.

My job is to challenge people’s thinking and to challenge myself creatively. I’m growing and maturing as a writer. During the weekend, I was in a writing zone. I followed my heart and wrote a few poems.

I tried changing structure and adding a couple of pauses to my poems. I want to be formless.  I can do it. I just have to keep writing. His words challenged me this weekend. I felt inspired to take more chances with my writing.

After I finished a poem, I tried calling him, but there was no answer. I wanted to show that I can be less technical. That was my ego. I’m glad he didn’t pick up (lol). I still love him. He’s my guy. I have nothing to prove to anyone.

I can never please anyone, but myself. Each day I have to answer this question: Do I want to move torwards greatness or stay put because of fear?

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Say Something

Man, I really love “Say Something”.  You must find a mate who’s supportive and not jealous of your success.

Nuff said.

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In Sickness, There Is Clarity

Yes, in sickness there is clarity. I’m a testament to it. I dislike being sick. But, the it let me know that I need to slow down.  I was overexerting myself. Writing and researching seven days a week and working a temp job. I became a workaholic. I was always on the computer working on projects, researching and listening to music.

 It was all about me. Ididn’t know how to relax and wind down. I ignored my family. Everyone needs a break from work. Who want’s to burn out from their passion/s? Or be alone with the gold plaques?

I just want to write and encourage people.  It’s impossible if my health is affected. Right now, by God’s grace I’m healthy. The days laying in bed showed that I have to increase my leisure.

During that time I watched movies and basketball. Two things that I loved when I was a kid. I shouted and grimaced through made and missed baskets. I perused the cable guide channel for movies. I watched Donnie Brasco and Dead Presidents.

I had fun. Also, the conversation with my parents were more real. It wasn’t a brush off. I wasn’t too busy to communicate with them.  Once again, In sickness there is clarity.

Dr. Dennis Kimbro Interview

Black History Month concludes with Author Dr. Dennis Kimbro.

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Part 2:

Dr. Daniel Hale Williams

a lil graphic. viewer discretion is advised.

Reco McDaniel

Planting a seed.

Paul Robeson